I'm not

Even in the MOOD to blog at the moment..

But i feel that if i write (type, what ever ) about how im feeling.. then maybe it'll start to feel better.. that i'll start to feel better.
3 . Sadie !!™ says:
My life is just a nothingness at the moment.. everything in it. there's not ONE bit.. thats like.. special. lmao
·#I'm·# ·'just a·' ·@·&teenage dirtbag·@·& baby [c=46]<3[/c]>
:O
·#I'm·# ·'just a·' ·@·&teenage dirtbag·@·& baby [c=46]<3[/c] says:
I thought you was going for the jay


This.. is Jay's bro im talking too..
And... when i was talking to him.. i felt as though There was just NO hope .. not from what he had said.. but.. from my own realisations.
And it sucks.
Good and proper. Just like usual.
I just... i just feel like its not going to happen.. no matter how close i manage to get.. i just.. i dont know.
=\
And it's rubbish.. because i do like him.
God..
Wish i had somebody to actually TALK to about it, rather then telling me either one thing or another.
I need somebody that really knows him.. a freind..
But that territory is unfamiliar and knowing me i'd screw up..

Like usual.

SecretAlias, xx