That's one other thing off of my shoulders!
Past couple have days..infact.. THIS WEEK has been draining..
Im sooo tired!
All i want to do is go to bed but its earrllyy and there's housework to be done.
Fun times eh!
I've got a science biology essay to contend with.. but im actually looking forward to it
And a Re-draft of my English coursework to give me a big fat A* :)
School is flying by and its not long left now till we leave.
Great stuff.
OHH JOY ITS THE WEEKEND!
Tomorrow should be great stuff.. im going out with Michelle down london to chillaxxx and have a chat.
I've come to the conclusion that Male's are wankers.
They vary in wanker-ness ( im aware its not a word), but... they all are.
Even the "Nice" one's.
From now on, they are EARNING trust, and if they cant be bothered, then they arnt worth bothering about.
Capeesh!?
Secret Alias, xx
Friday, 27 March 2009
Monday, 23 March 2009
New old update
( THIS WAS WRITTEN A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO, NOTHING MUCH HAS CHANGED)
its the 22nd of march.. .at 3.33am in the morning.. & i cant sleep..
Again.
blogspot is being read by too many people at the moment and i dont want them reading this. yet.
im sitting here with a fag in my hand listening to all that remains.. Ha.
what an apt name for a band.. it's exactly how i feel.
or more too the point, WHAT IS all that remains?
Not much by the looks of things!
I .. ahh i dont know.
i dont know HOW im feeling at the moment.. all i know is that its not a particularly HAPPY feeling.
Gah.
as always tbh.
Cant say im a particularly happy person :)
thats just me.
thats just life eh.
sorry mate.
I LOOK happy, i ACT happy, but im NOT happy.
s'always the way.
N'ermind.
councilling wont help.. because i dont know exactly WHATS making me feel this way.
its a complete mixture of things.. some of which seem petty and ridiculous.. but build up, all culminate to a massive wieght.
on my shoulders.. that no one else can bere for me.
the only person that's come close to helping me lift it ( if only for a while)
Has been kris.
at the ski slope.
i dont know, he just gets the fact that asking Questions doesnt help me.
He'll just sit there with me, or lay there in the case of the ski slope, and listen to music with me.. and stuff will just flow.
he doesnt push, or prod, he's not nosey, or intrusive.
He just listens.
He offers advise but doesnt force it,
he know's when to crack a joke but is also a serious character.
and im going to miss him tremendously when he moves to brighton.
bad times. but he has an amazingly brilliant oppertunity to take there, and i know he will be fantastic in whatever he does in life, and i dont plan to lose contact.
So its not all terrible.
Im not saying that none of my other friends dont listen, or help me .. because they do.. in different ways.
Kris is just the one that reaches bottom. for some odd reason. i dont know. we're alot more similar then we realise.
He opens up too.. i think because he knows that what he says will stay with me. and i like to think he can relate to me, and i too him.
there was a time when i liked him, but it's grown into more then that. i dont like him in the sense of " fancy" anymore, because we've become closer then that.
i can honestly say that i view him as one of my best freinds, ever.
and i owe him for constantly being there.. i know that if i called him at say 4 in the morning crying,
he'd listen.
he might not be HAPPY that i called him at that time, but hey, i know he wouldnt hang up!
i've realised just who i want in my life in the past month.. and kris, outt've the 300 people in my year group, is the main one.
Everyone else will just fade away im sure.
which is a shame, but thats life.
i dont fit in there... and yeah, it is sad.. but heyy.. Im made of stronger stuff then that, and i've only got 6 weeks or so left at the shithole anyway.
so after that, many people can literally go fuck themselves :)
it'll be harder for all those in cliques to leave school then it will be for me.. because they think they'll all be staying great mates with their "BFF'S", but when the
facebook comments dry up, and the txt's go unanswered.. they'll realise.
but by then it will be too late. Which is also a shame.
on the last day.. i doubt very much that i'll cry.. just as i didnt for primary school.
i was the only kid outt've my year that didnt cry.
How wierd am i.
And i just.. know i wont.. because i wont miss anyone ( with one exception ). all my bridges are burnt save for one, possibly two ( Jorden)
this summer has too be amazingly beautiful.. in everyway.
I'll MAKE it beautiful.
it's the only thing worth looking forward too in these sad times.
Shit.. it's 4 in the morning, s'pose i'd better kick out.
G'night.
its the 22nd of march.. .at 3.33am in the morning.. & i cant sleep..
Again.
blogspot is being read by too many people at the moment and i dont want them reading this. yet.
im sitting here with a fag in my hand listening to all that remains.. Ha.
what an apt name for a band.. it's exactly how i feel.
or more too the point, WHAT IS all that remains?
Not much by the looks of things!
I .. ahh i dont know.
i dont know HOW im feeling at the moment.. all i know is that its not a particularly HAPPY feeling.
Gah.
as always tbh.
Cant say im a particularly happy person :)
thats just me.
thats just life eh.
sorry mate.
I LOOK happy, i ACT happy, but im NOT happy.
s'always the way.
N'ermind.
councilling wont help.. because i dont know exactly WHATS making me feel this way.
its a complete mixture of things.. some of which seem petty and ridiculous.. but build up, all culminate to a massive wieght.
on my shoulders.. that no one else can bere for me.
the only person that's come close to helping me lift it ( if only for a while)
Has been kris.
at the ski slope.
i dont know, he just gets the fact that asking Questions doesnt help me.
He'll just sit there with me, or lay there in the case of the ski slope, and listen to music with me.. and stuff will just flow.
he doesnt push, or prod, he's not nosey, or intrusive.
He just listens.
He offers advise but doesnt force it,
he know's when to crack a joke but is also a serious character.
and im going to miss him tremendously when he moves to brighton.
bad times. but he has an amazingly brilliant oppertunity to take there, and i know he will be fantastic in whatever he does in life, and i dont plan to lose contact.
So its not all terrible.
Im not saying that none of my other friends dont listen, or help me .. because they do.. in different ways.
Kris is just the one that reaches bottom. for some odd reason. i dont know. we're alot more similar then we realise.
He opens up too.. i think because he knows that what he says will stay with me. and i like to think he can relate to me, and i too him.
there was a time when i liked him, but it's grown into more then that. i dont like him in the sense of " fancy" anymore, because we've become closer then that.
i can honestly say that i view him as one of my best freinds, ever.
and i owe him for constantly being there.. i know that if i called him at say 4 in the morning crying,
he'd listen.
he might not be HAPPY that i called him at that time, but hey, i know he wouldnt hang up!
i've realised just who i want in my life in the past month.. and kris, outt've the 300 people in my year group, is the main one.
Everyone else will just fade away im sure.
which is a shame, but thats life.
i dont fit in there... and yeah, it is sad.. but heyy.. Im made of stronger stuff then that, and i've only got 6 weeks or so left at the shithole anyway.
so after that, many people can literally go fuck themselves :)
it'll be harder for all those in cliques to leave school then it will be for me.. because they think they'll all be staying great mates with their "BFF'S", but when the
facebook comments dry up, and the txt's go unanswered.. they'll realise.
but by then it will be too late. Which is also a shame.
on the last day.. i doubt very much that i'll cry.. just as i didnt for primary school.
i was the only kid outt've my year that didnt cry.
How wierd am i.
And i just.. know i wont.. because i wont miss anyone ( with one exception ). all my bridges are burnt save for one, possibly two ( Jorden)
this summer has too be amazingly beautiful.. in everyway.
I'll MAKE it beautiful.
it's the only thing worth looking forward too in these sad times.
Shit.. it's 4 in the morning, s'pose i'd better kick out.
G'night.
SecretAlias, xx
Thursday, 19 March 2009
I know its late
But,
I need to talk otherwise i wont be able to sleep..
Home life is fucking up.. bill's and such are putting a huge strain on my aunt.. which in turn is puting strain on the atmosphere at home.
And it's horrible.. really, really horrible.
School isnt an escape for me either.. because i dont Belong anywhere.
I thought i did, once.
But i've since realised that, i just dont.
Simple as.
And people i thought wanted me, they don't seem to give two shits any more, which is a major letdown..
I'm in a rubbish place atm.. my head is messed and i need to sort it out..
But how.
SecretAlias ??,
xx
I need to talk otherwise i wont be able to sleep..
Home life is fucking up.. bill's and such are putting a huge strain on my aunt.. which in turn is puting strain on the atmosphere at home.
And it's horrible.. really, really horrible.
School isnt an escape for me either.. because i dont Belong anywhere.
I thought i did, once.
But i've since realised that, i just dont.
Simple as.
And people i thought wanted me, they don't seem to give two shits any more, which is a major letdown..
I'm in a rubbish place atm.. my head is messed and i need to sort it out..
But how.
SecretAlias ??,
xx
Monday, 16 March 2009
Hmm..
Well.. since my last post on ... Friday i do believe.. well..
I've spoken to my Freind Khadija :)
And she's given me a useful insight... she told me not to give up.
Ha. And i've listened to her.
I still feel asthough things are slowly going to pot love wise.. but we spoke about that too.
She is a wonderful girl :)
Im feeling distant again today.. and a little saddened.
I feel like im being ignored for NO reason. And i dont like that.
Ignore me fine! im not bothered! but at least give me a reason for christs's sake.
I can't wait to leave.. and start a new chapter in my life.. this chapter is five years old and its beginning to poison me.. I detest waking up in the moring and thinking i have to put on that shitty uniform and see all those faces and listen to all that pointless noise.
Grow up for fucks sake.
Your not children anymore, we're not children anymore.
It's time to move on with life.
Roll on July..
SecretAlias,
xx
I've spoken to my Freind Khadija :)
And she's given me a useful insight... she told me not to give up.
Ha. And i've listened to her.
I still feel asthough things are slowly going to pot love wise.. but we spoke about that too.
She is a wonderful girl :)
Im feeling distant again today.. and a little saddened.
I feel like im being ignored for NO reason. And i dont like that.
Ignore me fine! im not bothered! but at least give me a reason for christs's sake.
I can't wait to leave.. and start a new chapter in my life.. this chapter is five years old and its beginning to poison me.. I detest waking up in the moring and thinking i have to put on that shitty uniform and see all those faces and listen to all that pointless noise.
Grow up for fucks sake.
Your not children anymore, we're not children anymore.
It's time to move on with life.
Roll on July..
SecretAlias,
xx
Friday, 13 March 2009
I'm not
Even in the MOOD to blog at the moment..
But i feel that if i write (type, what ever ) about how im feeling.. then maybe it'll start to feel better.. that i'll start to feel better.
3 . Sadie !!™ says:
My life is just a nothingness at the moment.. everything in it. there's not ONE bit.. thats like.. special. lmao
·#I'm·# ·'just a·' ·@·&teenage dirtbag·@·& baby [c=46]<3[/c]>
:O
·#I'm·# ·'just a·' ·@·&teenage dirtbag·@·& baby [c=46]<3[/c] says:
I thought you was going for the jay
This.. is Jay's bro im talking too..
And... when i was talking to him.. i felt as though There was just NO hope .. not from what he had said.. but.. from my own realisations.
And it sucks.
Good and proper. Just like usual.
I just... i just feel like its not going to happen.. no matter how close i manage to get.. i just.. i dont know.
=\
And it's rubbish.. because i do like him.
God..
Wish i had somebody to actually TALK to about it, rather then telling me either one thing or another.
I need somebody that really knows him.. a freind..
But that territory is unfamiliar and knowing me i'd screw up..
Like usual.
SecretAlias, xx
But i feel that if i write (type, what ever ) about how im feeling.. then maybe it'll start to feel better.. that i'll start to feel better.
3 . Sadie !!™ says:
My life is just a nothingness at the moment.. everything in it. there's not ONE bit.. thats like.. special. lmao
·#I'm·# ·'just a·' ·@·&teenage dirtbag·@·& baby [c=46]<3[/c]>
:O
·#I'm·# ·'just a·' ·@·&teenage dirtbag·@·& baby [c=46]<3[/c] says:
I thought you was going for the jay
This.. is Jay's bro im talking too..
And... when i was talking to him.. i felt as though There was just NO hope .. not from what he had said.. but.. from my own realisations.
And it sucks.
Good and proper. Just like usual.
I just... i just feel like its not going to happen.. no matter how close i manage to get.. i just.. i dont know.
=\
And it's rubbish.. because i do like him.
God..
Wish i had somebody to actually TALK to about it, rather then telling me either one thing or another.
I need somebody that really knows him.. a freind..
But that territory is unfamiliar and knowing me i'd screw up..
Like usual.
SecretAlias, xx
Thursday, 12 March 2009
RUSSEL BRAND! aha ;)
Fun stuff ! :P im watching him live on the telly.. oh how he makes me laugh.
"ooohh im gonna fucking cum * groans * ohh yeah "
This sorta shit reduces me to fits of laughter.
Ohh the fun.
It's friday tomorro. THANK GOD!
Not that its going to be any good though..
Im in a rubbish mood... tomorro will be rubbish.. im going to be in school till 5.. then i have to rush back to Dagenham to pick up my cousin because my aunts being longggg just because i said im not going to her staff party.. Gahh.
And apparently im not allowed to stay out tomorro night, which is code for " Your not going out"
TAKES THE PISS.
Ohwell.. its not asthough i've got anywhere to go anyway.
ppffh..
HAHAHAHAHA now Russel brands talking about deep throating... ahahhahaahah
Fucking retard man.. but he is BLOODY hillarious..
SEXYTIME WITH RUSSEL BRAND! (Y)
SecretAlias, xx
"ooohh im gonna fucking cum * groans * ohh yeah "
This sorta shit reduces me to fits of laughter.
Ohh the fun.
It's friday tomorro. THANK GOD!
Not that its going to be any good though..
Im in a rubbish mood... tomorro will be rubbish.. im going to be in school till 5.. then i have to rush back to Dagenham to pick up my cousin because my aunts being longggg just because i said im not going to her staff party.. Gahh.
And apparently im not allowed to stay out tomorro night, which is code for " Your not going out"
TAKES THE PISS.
Ohwell.. its not asthough i've got anywhere to go anyway.
ppffh..
HAHAHAHAHA now Russel brands talking about deep throating... ahahhahaahah
Fucking retard man.. but he is BLOODY hillarious..
SEXYTIME WITH RUSSEL BRAND! (Y)
SecretAlias, xx
Wednesday, 11 March 2009
And breathe.
Hello there blogspot..
I'm tired at this moment..
I was just about to sign off of my pc but suddenly decided to write a post.
God know's why as i dont really have anything interesting to say other then i found my phone and my oyster card... and that i spent the day at home today ;)
Im going to wash up.. tidy my room a bit... then Sleep.
Ahh sleep.
Cant get enough of it.
The weekend canNOT come Soon enough..
for these 3 reasons;
1) Parrrtayyy on friday night.
2) Staying over Kerri's on saturday night
3) Jay's back from Prague :)
So yeah..
It's all good.
Yess..
Btw, illness is going! no more cold to contend with.. well.. not MUCH of one anyway.
Because when i, arrive, i , i bring the fire make you come, Alive, i can take you higher.
SecretAlias,
xx
I'm tired at this moment..
I was just about to sign off of my pc but suddenly decided to write a post.
God know's why as i dont really have anything interesting to say other then i found my phone and my oyster card... and that i spent the day at home today ;)
Im going to wash up.. tidy my room a bit... then Sleep.
Ahh sleep.
Cant get enough of it.
The weekend canNOT come Soon enough..
for these 3 reasons;
1) Parrrtayyy on friday night.
2) Staying over Kerri's on saturday night
3) Jay's back from Prague :)
So yeah..
It's all good.
Yess..
Btw, illness is going! no more cold to contend with.. well.. not MUCH of one anyway.
Because when i, arrive, i , i bring the fire make you come, Alive, i can take you higher.
SecretAlias,
xx
Tuesday, 10 March 2009
ill..
I.. am ill.
It's so amazingly annoying, as im hardly ill and i hate the fact that i feel like rubbish physically aswell as emotionally..
I've just changed my WHOLE bedroom around.. i think i must be crazy tbh!
In whole it only took me around 35 mins.. but now i have to put everything away and find home's for stuff and tidy it all up and its so much goddamn effort..
Plus i have to attempt to try and find my phone and oyster card which have both gone missing mysteriously, and what SMACKS it is that my phone battery has died.. so i cant even bloody PHONE it!
Also, my phone charger has gone walk-abouts aswell!
I give up in this house..
On the upside.. my room does look ALOT better.. and its wednesday tomorrow.. which means its my free day woo :) Time to chill me thinks.. going to have a lovely bath tomorro before anyone comes home.. and will look for that phone charger if i dont get round to it tonight..
somehow i dont think i'll be going to bed anytime soon.. which is really bad as im ill..
Look's like i'll be crashing soon.
System overload.
SecretAlias, xx
It's so amazingly annoying, as im hardly ill and i hate the fact that i feel like rubbish physically aswell as emotionally..
I've just changed my WHOLE bedroom around.. i think i must be crazy tbh!
In whole it only took me around 35 mins.. but now i have to put everything away and find home's for stuff and tidy it all up and its so much goddamn effort..
Plus i have to attempt to try and find my phone and oyster card which have both gone missing mysteriously, and what SMACKS it is that my phone battery has died.. so i cant even bloody PHONE it!
Also, my phone charger has gone walk-abouts aswell!
I give up in this house..
On the upside.. my room does look ALOT better.. and its wednesday tomorrow.. which means its my free day woo :) Time to chill me thinks.. going to have a lovely bath tomorro before anyone comes home.. and will look for that phone charger if i dont get round to it tonight..
somehow i dont think i'll be going to bed anytime soon.. which is really bad as im ill..
Look's like i'll be crashing soon.
System overload.
SecretAlias, xx
Sunday, 8 March 2009
So it's sunday..
And.. im not feeling to shabby.
I went to see Michelle Last night, and we got a TAD bit drunk..
It was bloody fun to say the least!!
Lets just say 4 litres of strongbow and a bottle of vodka "Does the job"!
We just chilled out in her shed listening to bullet for my valentine blasting out loud, and playing cards and chatting...
Then the picture time came around.. hahaha :D
bad bad baddd, but FUN.
We're going to hang out alot more now, as we havnt for a while.
Jay's off to Prague tomorro!!
And... apparently he's getting me something??
Haha.. oh dear..
I chose a surprise, so i really do not have a clue!
I plan to tell him how i feel when he gets backk.. soo.. yeah!
But obviously with the right moment hahaha..
I owe him a "prize", and he chose the mystery one.. so he doesnt know what his present is either..
Mwahaha.. after he give's me mine.. he'll get his.
( Which will probably be a kiss..)
Thenn that should be the perfect opening to tell him..
It probably wont happen like that and everything will fuck up.. but thats how i imagine it to be..
and it is possible.. so..
Finger's crossed aye?..
S'gna be boring on facebook without him for a week though! lmfao!
Peace,
SecretAlias,
xx
And.. im not feeling to shabby.
I went to see Michelle Last night, and we got a TAD bit drunk..
It was bloody fun to say the least!!
Lets just say 4 litres of strongbow and a bottle of vodka "Does the job"!
We just chilled out in her shed listening to bullet for my valentine blasting out loud, and playing cards and chatting...
Then the picture time came around.. hahaha :D
bad bad baddd, but FUN.
We're going to hang out alot more now, as we havnt for a while.
Jay's off to Prague tomorro!!
And... apparently he's getting me something??
Haha.. oh dear..
I chose a surprise, so i really do not have a clue!
I plan to tell him how i feel when he gets backk.. soo.. yeah!
But obviously with the right moment hahaha..
I owe him a "prize", and he chose the mystery one.. so he doesnt know what his present is either..
Mwahaha.. after he give's me mine.. he'll get his.
( Which will probably be a kiss..)
Thenn that should be the perfect opening to tell him..
It probably wont happen like that and everything will fuck up.. but thats how i imagine it to be..
and it is possible.. so..
Finger's crossed aye?..
S'gna be boring on facebook without him for a week though! lmfao!
Peace,
SecretAlias,
xx
Wednesday, 4 March 2009
Drained.
Exaustion is a funny thing..
You never realise how thin your spreading yourself untill you finally tear..
I..
Need "me" time.
My aunt really PISSED me off not to long ago, about 30 mins...
She wanted to have some "alone time" with her bf, so she was trying to get me to go out to buy some school shoes and she wanted to take josh with me.. even THOUGH he'd just been caught nicking a tenner off of me and she'd banned him from going to the park.
Is this just me, or does letting him come out shopping, not defeat the whole purpose of not letting him out??
So i said no, that i wasnt taking him, because he had been naughty.
Which personally i feel is Quite fair enough, but Ohhh Noo.
My aunt starts flying off at me, laying down the guilt trip about " favours"
Yet she neglected to mention how many favours i do her also.
I just cant deal with all this pointless shit atm.
If somethings gna make me upset, i want it to be something worthwhile.
I actually cried. I sat in my room, on my bed, and i cried.
What a fucking idiot.
It wasnt dramatic theatrical sobbing.. it was just, tears.. silent.
I don't feel well.. my depression is coming back and i can feel it..
I dont want this shit hanging over me again..
It's just too much..
I just want to get away for a while.
SecretAlias,
xx
You never realise how thin your spreading yourself untill you finally tear..
I..
Need "me" time.
My aunt really PISSED me off not to long ago, about 30 mins...
She wanted to have some "alone time" with her bf, so she was trying to get me to go out to buy some school shoes and she wanted to take josh with me.. even THOUGH he'd just been caught nicking a tenner off of me and she'd banned him from going to the park.
Is this just me, or does letting him come out shopping, not defeat the whole purpose of not letting him out??
So i said no, that i wasnt taking him, because he had been naughty.
Which personally i feel is Quite fair enough, but Ohhh Noo.
My aunt starts flying off at me, laying down the guilt trip about " favours"
Yet she neglected to mention how many favours i do her also.
I just cant deal with all this pointless shit atm.
If somethings gna make me upset, i want it to be something worthwhile.
I actually cried. I sat in my room, on my bed, and i cried.
What a fucking idiot.
It wasnt dramatic theatrical sobbing.. it was just, tears.. silent.
I don't feel well.. my depression is coming back and i can feel it..
I dont want this shit hanging over me again..
It's just too much..
I just want to get away for a while.
SecretAlias,
xx
Monday, 2 March 2009
Today.. has been
RIDICULOUSLY Busy.
I've been up since five am..
i didnt go to sleep untill three am..
i had TWO written science exams at Seven am..
i had to be in westminster by Nine am..
i had to perform at 11.30pm..
we all went for lunch in westminster at 12.30/1.00 Pm..
I had to catch the district line all the way back to Dagenham at 2.30Pm..
And i got home at 3.10pm.
My drama teacher called me, and had a little moan..
I have work tomorro.. and drama.. and break duties..
i have to go and pick up my little cousin by 6 tonight..
I have to write an essay for english, i've chosen to argue about Subliminal messaging in advertising..
I need to revise for maths..
and science.
i need to finish my song for music c/w..
i have to cook dinner..
i need to practice my solo performance..
i need to choose a song for my ensemble..
I need to complete my french speaking booklet...
i need to complete my spanish speaking booklet..
i need to redraft at least two peice's of English c/w ..
i need to do loads.
Corr...
i have alot of work on me plate!
And i still want to have a nice bath tonight and relax and go to bed early..
i dont think thats going to happen :(
I just want a cuddle..
SecretAlias,
xx
I've been up since five am..
i didnt go to sleep untill three am..
i had TWO written science exams at Seven am..
i had to be in westminster by Nine am..
i had to perform at 11.30pm..
we all went for lunch in westminster at 12.30/1.00 Pm..
I had to catch the district line all the way back to Dagenham at 2.30Pm..
And i got home at 3.10pm.
My drama teacher called me, and had a little moan..
I have work tomorro.. and drama.. and break duties..
i have to go and pick up my little cousin by 6 tonight..
I have to write an essay for english, i've chosen to argue about Subliminal messaging in advertising..
I need to revise for maths..
and science.
i need to finish my song for music c/w..
i have to cook dinner..
i need to practice my solo performance..
i need to choose a song for my ensemble..
I need to complete my french speaking booklet...
i need to complete my spanish speaking booklet..
i need to redraft at least two peice's of English c/w ..
i need to do loads.
Corr...
i have alot of work on me plate!
And i still want to have a nice bath tonight and relax and go to bed early..
i dont think thats going to happen :(
I just want a cuddle..
SecretAlias,
xx
Sunday, 1 March 2009
Foam party on ice on saturday.
It.. was Brilliant.
I loved each and every minute of it untill it was time to get on the bus and say goodbye to everyone.
Kadija fell over about 16 times, i had to actually TEACH her how to skate .
Patrick took some TERRIBLE pictures, but, he also took the bestest one :)
Me && Jay.
we didnt even know that picture was being taken..
It was lovely seeing him again, he makes me laugh like a crazy woman and i cant help but smile when he's around.
We were holding hands again and flirting like crazzzyyy...
On several occations we were close enough to kiss..
I WILL make it happen..
I'm determined.
SecretAlias
xx
I loved each and every minute of it untill it was time to get on the bus and say goodbye to everyone.
Kadija fell over about 16 times, i had to actually TEACH her how to skate .
Patrick took some TERRIBLE pictures, but, he also took the bestest one :)
Me && Jay.
we didnt even know that picture was being taken..
It was lovely seeing him again, he makes me laugh like a crazy woman and i cant help but smile when he's around.
We were holding hands again and flirting like crazzzyyy...
On several occations we were close enough to kiss..
I WILL make it happen..
I'm determined.
SecretAlias
xx
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