Quite a while.

I'd say its been a good four or so days since i last wrote to you..
And havnt they just been hectic!
I've been so busy i can hardly keep track of the days.
Rehersal's, meetings,duties, so much.
Also, the NME gig last night.. <33333333333333333

WAS SOOOO GOOD .

Not only.. did we actually get IN, ( we may not have as the tickets wernt legally ours :P)
But, we got RE SEATED to the front row next to the stage! Aha ;)
Plus we were sitting next to the woman who's tickets they were in the first place :P

Mwwwahhhaa
That, coupled with strongbow and marlboro reds, was just Perfectó :)

I got home at around 12am, sat up and watched my missed skins episode ( which was pretty Shit apart from the lesbian scene !I was like :O :D )
Stayed up till around 2ish, then went to bed.. only to wake up at 6 today! Grr..
I had to meet adam early so i could get my stuff and get changed into my Clothes as i left my bag round his rather then taking it to the gig with me.
Makes sense right?

Yeahh.

So today is Friday.. and now its the weekend.
I was supposed to be going to an Foam party on ice with Jay today.. but.. I didnt have enough money so my aunt decided to trap me into baby sitting.. instead of offering me like £4, Four measly quid!
All so she can go out! Grr.. ohwell..
I guess i better had start saving up for my party anyway..

It still doesnt change the fact that i dont get to see him though!
I was hanging out with his Brother today after Ed. , and i thought about following through and asking him about Jay like i was going to..but, i realised i wasnt ready too.
Not yet..
So we just went to Sam's ( a chicken place) grabbed some food and had a chat, and i told him more about myself.. not the happy loud sadie, but the sadie that went through a stage of Manic depression, that had a nervous break down, that comes from a broken family home, that moved out when she was 13, that has two junkie's for parents, that had to have councilling, that was put on sleeping pills because of the depression...etc etc.

He was in stunned silence throughout the most of it...
I understand it must've been wierd, thinking you know somebody, then finding out that they have a completely different side to them.
As i told him, when you get to a certain point, like i did, you can hide how broken you are on the inside from other people.
It honestly isnt difficult at all.

At the end of the convo, i went, " So hi!, im Sadie!" and we just laughed.

It's nice to be able to laugh sometimes.


SecretAlias,

xx