So life starts again.

This is where it gets harder.
This is where, the boundaries are pushed and limits are reached.
This is where we find out if we will succeed, or fail.
On monday, i go back to college.
I feel like im taking a step backwards... but i have to keep reminding myself that it's only temporary, and this step backwards, if done properly, will enable me to jump 10 steps forward. Whats two years ? Realistically...
Once i'm at university life will be my own. And i'll be doing something that i love with a passion.
I'll be able to work a decent amount of hours, maybe, possibily, even get an apprenticeship with a company, meaning that i'll have a guarenteed job to walk into after Uni.

But that's all in the future, what i have to think about, is now.
These next two years i have to consentrate, word hard, and achieve.

That would be easy... if i didnt have a life!
Family, freinds, work .... and the boyfriend.

Him.

I'm scared... of course i am.
I'm scared that he'll get bored, or won't be able to deal with my work load affecting how much we see eachother.
I'm scared that he won't understand the stress that i'll be under.
I'm scared that i'll lose him, because of this step backwards.
But i will never know untill i try.
And i have to try, because i will NOT work at a store for the rest of my life, wasting away serving ungrateful arseholes, while all the while wondering what i could've done with my life. I'll just grow into a bitter old woman, full of regrets.
So i have to try... but it will be hard.
I know i can manage it... but can he?


SecretAlias, xx