Trapped - To prevent from escaping or getting free, A confining or undesirable circumstance from which escape or relief is difficult..

I was the girl with the broken smile... and i guess i still am.




SecretAlias, xx

A fool

I have been.

Chasing dream's that in reality were never going to amount to anything.
Chasing people that never will, in reality, amount to anything.
Not making the most of what i have and persistantly and consistently looking for more.

Why did i feel the need to do that?
Why do i alway's have to find a flaw in something that is perfectly sound and calm and good.

I don't know..


SecretAlias, xx

était inspirée de....

La la la la laaa...

I feel really upset lately..
I'm so impulsive.. and i feel trapped by college.
Not trapped by college.. trapped by my subjects, well, all except english.

I've lost my "creative spark" and i can't write prose or poem's at the moment.
i can still draw, at least.. but that's not what i want.

That's not who i am.
I tried to kid myself into thinking that somewhere away from music was where i belonged.. and it,as i eventually knew it would, has come back to haunt me.

I just don't feel... "happy"
You know what i want?
I want to go to a big green fucking feild, with my headphone's and my ipod, and just lay there.
Lay there and listen to MY music, write some shit and just feel... free.
Spacious.
That's the worst thing about college.. you never have your own space.
At school everyone had the same lesson's and places were empty and you could go there and be alone!
At college your never alone, ever.
I find it suffocating at times.
I'm becoming more and more recluse and... to be honest.. i really don't mind it.

What's wrong with me?

SecretAlias,
xx